Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A Disturbing Dream

All my life I’ve been a very vivid dreamer and to be honest, I haven’t liked it because a lot of my dreams tend to be more disturbing than dreamy.

Last night I had one of those unsettling dreams. I was at one of my old jobs with an old boss. She came up to me and said … I’ve been doing some reading about your disease. She said, did you know you have a 100% chance of dying from it?” Just great! I really needed to hear that!

So is the prospect of dying on my mind? Yes, but I try not to dwell on it…. and doing that is difficult.

6 comments:

Glenn said...

What's good about that dream is you saw yourself back to work!!! What's freaky, I had a disturbing dream last night too involving my boss and woke up with a panic attack. Must be the heat. Thank goodness we don't have to deal with work at the moment and can put all thoughts aside revolving the negativity associated with it. Live in the moment.

Breeze said...

Sounds disturbing and particularly so if you aren't ready to leave yet. Maybe it's your subconscious working through your fears in your dreams. Of course we all have a 100% chance of dying, even those of us who aren't currently battling illness. I may go before you. It's kind of out of all of our control and that's probably what scared many people. I hope you have some sweeter dreams to make up for it Daria.

Breeze

Gerry said...

Big hug, Daria!

Anonymous said...

Hi Daria,

I find it very difficult not to dwell on the prospect of dying. One of my most difficult and consistent issues is the utter and lasting shock of knowing that I'll be lucky to last 5 years and that I've just used up one of those years.....

Bernie said...

It seems whenever something disturbing/exciting is happening in our lives we dream....I had vivid dreams when I was pregnant, eveything turned our well there then again I had the same horrid dream over and over again as I battled cancer. I think when our system is going through changes and we have many things on our minds we dream. It is just what happens....I don't think I would read to much into it Daria, as you do have a lot going on right now and your subconsious is working overtime.....big hugs:-)

WhiteStone said...

I'm with anonymous in that I figure I'll be lucky to last five years. However, strangely enough, I've had no dreams that can be associated with my cancer. I hadn't thought of that till now. But it's strange!